Last week, I was telling you about how I was ditching my “list” of projects and tasks, because it was running my life. I thought I share a quick update on my listlessness journey.
Last week was pretty busy for me, so on Day 1 and Day 2, it really wasn’t so bad. There were enough things going on, that I barely thought of the list.
“Easy peasy,” I thought.
“I can do this,” I thought.
“Why didn’t I do this before,” I thought.
Then came Day 3. Life slowed down a little, it was snowing, and I started to think about all of those things waiting on that abandoned list. I started to feel anxious. I should be doing those “things!”
I almost pulled the list out. Almost. Well, I did have to slap my hand back a little. But, I stopped myself from looking at it.
Instead, I looked around the house and thought about what I’d like to do, not what I should do. I found a sewing idea I had stashed away and forgotten about. It was just some fabric for a T shirt, but I found the pattern, cut out the fabric, and made the shirt. It took maybe an hour, once I got going. It looks cute, and more importantly, it was fun.
While I had my stash of fabric out, I dug out my half finished winter coat. I hung it up in the sewing room, and played with it a bit. I finished the pockets that had been annoying me for so long. I pulled out some more fabric to try out different trim ideas. As it hung in the room, I let it inspire me. Over the course of the next few days I finished it.
I’ll admit it. The coat has been on my “list” for months and months now. I dreaded working on it because I was having some problems with the lining and it frustrated me to no end. Every time I saw it on the “list,” I felt this sense of dread and heaviness come over me. Then, when it was the last thing on my “current list,” I’d move it to my “new list,” along with a feeling of failure and anxiousness.
Now the coat is done. All in all, it took so much less time that I thought it would. It wasn’t painful to do.
It wasn’t until yesterday that I gave the question any real thought. I had so much fun playing around with the fabric and trying out different ideas. I had mentally removed it from the “must do project list,” and gave it a different reality; a creative reality. That apparently struck a chord in my artistic soul and off I went.
Then I thought about how the rest of the week had gone. My list had also contained activity items like: going to the gym 3 days a week, and doing stretching and toning exercises at home the other 4 days. I had been “failing” at those, as well, prior to dumping the list. This past week I managed to go to 3 aqua size classes, swim a 1/3 of a mile, and go on a very long walk with my hubby up and down the hills at the Arboretum. Each activity I did, was because I thought it would be a fun thing to do, at the moment.
I was also more relaxed this week. Even when things came up that upset me or changed my plans, it was much easier to go with the flow. I have to admit, I like this new way of going about my day.
I can’t say that I am totally cured from my list addiction. I mean it’s only been a week and my list making has been a life-long journey. But, going cold turkey has been inspiring, so far. I’m getting glimpses of possibilities.
I’m going to keep going and see what happens.
2 thoughts on “Ditching The List, Week 2”
Loved this, thanks for sharing! I’ve played around with ditching the lists as well, but seem to keep going back to them. Calendars and planners are my addiction… Probably because they give me that false feeling of control.
Thanks! You’re right about the false feeling of control. A perfect description!
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